Wednesday, June 02, 2004
S is an old friend, we spent our young years studying the Bible, praying, reaching out to others who had an interest in following Jesus. S had a specific interest and skill in defending the Bible against cults. S also had a specific interest in alchohol. Over the next twenty years, S developed chronic alchoholism. As a young Christian, S came to recognise God as the highest power, willing to forgive his sin, and restore his humanity. Now, S has come to recognise himself as the highest power . . . as his liver fails, as his limbs go numb from alcholoic neuropathy, as all his relationships disintegrate.
C is also an old friend of mine, we spent those same early years studying the Bible, praying and reaching out to others who were interested in following Jesus. C had the uncanny ability to defend the Bible against the world views of humanists, pagans, and athiests. C also had the uncanny ability to obtain and ingest the highest quality illegal drugs. Over the next twenty years, C lived a double life. One life was as a high profile health care professional, serving the community and the church. The other life was as a secret drug addict, filled with deceit, lies, paranoia and guilt. When the two lives crashed together, it was a great crash indeed, filled with divorce, lawsuits and the loss of career, hope and dignity. C believes that God will now punish him severely, daily for the rest of his life. C continues with drugs. C belives that it would have been better if he had never been born.
E never believed in God, nor did his parents. E is funny, handsome, charming, generous, and sincere. E is 21 years old and is a heroin addict. E has been arrested five times for possesion and with intent to sell. Once, while on probation, E was just inserting the needle into his arm when his probation officer walked into the room, unannounced. E spent nine months in prison with mandatory drug rehabilitation therapy. After his release, he continued with a twelve step program. Unfortunately, E could not conceive of a power higher than himself. E has been arrested again for heroin possesion, and now wears a security collar around his neck.
My heart is broken over these three addicts. I imagine what they could have been, I imagine what they might yet become. I wish they could stop thinking that they are God. I wish I could stop thinking that I am God.
Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it. --Proverbs 22:6
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